GREEN DAY WILL BE IN BOSTON ON MY BIRTHDAY! I'm extremely excited about this news..hence the caps and me writing an entry dedicated to my loves. It's been over 3 years since I've last seen them and I can't wait. They didn't post where in Boston they'd be, I hope it isn't anywhere too big..but I'm sure it will be.

GREEEEEEN DAYYYYY!!! Turning 22 won't be so bad now.

Officially my first day at my new job. Don't fuck it up.

I hate having dreams with Jess in them. I had about 3 or 4 of them last week. One that made me really upset when I woke up. I feel like this has happened before, yes..yes it has. My horoscope for today was..."You have been having the weirdest dreams lately! Write them down while you still remember them - there is meaning there.." Hmm. Anyway, she called me tonight and we talked for a while. It made me feel happy to know she still cares about me. And, a little giggly for some reason.

I applied to Salem State and Johnson & Wales. I sent out my transcripts, my SAT scores, filled out the FAFSA, so now we wait. Wait to see which school gives me more money. I'd rather go to Salem State, for a bunch of reasons really. Closer to home, I can still work at Old Navy over the weekend, I like the area, and they have a good early childhood education program there. But, considering how well I did in High School and how low my GPA and SATS were, I probably won't get in to Salem State. But, we'll see what happens. I'm so excited and scared at the same time.

Work is work. Blah. Every time I punch in..I count the seconds to when I can punch back out. That's kind of sad. But, who likes their job anyway?

I got my taxes back, and I put $700 in my savings account. Save save save!

Forgetting Sarah Marshall is a wonderful movie. I've seen it twice already, and I'll see it again! And again...

Lots of things coming up, Kathy Griffin, Walk For Hunger, The Cure Concert, all within the next few weeks. Oy vey.

Ok, I'll try to go to sleep now.

So, I think I have the flu. Wednesday I woke up freezing, I didn't think anything of it really. But, as the day progressed (big word?) I felt worse and worse. I spent the entire day tossing and turning in my bed crying because my head hurt so much. Thursday was pretty much the same, felt like shit and tried to sleep most of the day. Today wasn't too great either, called out of work again (which I really hate doing.) I feel a lot better then I did the past couple of days. Yet, I'm hot as hell right now. In a few minutes I'll be freezing. Not going out for 3 days in horrendous. I hate being in my house doing absolutely nothing. I feel like a loser, I don't know how my father does it.

I hope I'll be well enough to go out into the world tomorrow and go back to my normal life. Hey Old Navy! Did you miss me?

K-BYE!

It's been a while since this has happened, but I don't want to be here. Sooo, I'm leaving 2 hours early for work. He really needs to leave.

Ahh, lovely times.

I'm going to try, really I am. I don't want to be this way. I want all of us to be happy with each other. I'll be better.

I went to bingo with my mom tonight, and won. It was actually kind of scary, plus I called out BINGO! too early. I felt like a tard. But, I think I'm good with going all the time. Once a year is good.

Ok, time to go do something.

I lost 3.8 pounds. I'm glad. I didn't think I lost anything. The leader at Weight Watchers was talking about how this lady is obsessed with BJ'S..so she says "Barbara is the queen of BJ'S!" So, of course everyone started cracking up laughing..besides the old people that have no idea what is going on most of the time. Anywho, it was a good day.

Work went by fast, got 3 ONC'S.

Still need to see Across The Universe...& Nightmare Before Christmas in 3D!

Grey's Anatomy later too! I need to catch up.

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So, im sitting in some small little internet place in rome writing to everyone about my stay here in italy. I cant really say too much right now, but lets just say i CANT WAIT to come home. I miss my brian, adri, tiana, maggie, ryana, brendan, and even the nave. Rome really just isnt my thing. its hott as crotch here and people are kinda rude. Im a lazy betch too, and walking around getting lost most of the time isnt that great. There were some nice things, we went to Capri, which was really beautiful. I got to talk to my mom, Brian and Adri while staying here, Randy let me use his phone, thank god...I honestly cant live without a phone. Im going souvenir shopping today for all you betches! The sweat under my pits is so lovely. =]

Be home tomorrow night! SOOOO HAPPY! 

P.S.-Everything im doing right now is in Italian, so if there are some mess ups in what I write, blame it on the Italy.  

Last night Brian, Tiana, Randy and I went to Salem. We got some food at this place called Engine House. It was unexpectedly good. We walked around for a little bit, then got back in the car. Brian wants to move there, I just want to move in general. He's like a cute little kid when it comes to Salem and Halloween. He should move to Salem, I think he'd love it there. We're going to go to one of the Haunted Houses soon. My Halloween last year sucked, I worked 7-4, then went home and slept the rest of the night. Such a waste. Not this year.

I'm afraid about leaving Old Navy. I want to, but I don't know if I'll really like Sears. But, Randy told me that if I apply for a manager position at Sears, I could make 14 something an hour and be guaranteed 40 hours a week. So, that sounds fabulous to me.

Work tonight 6-11. Then I have the next 3 days off. Fierce. I mean Strawberry Gatorade?

I want to go to a concert really bad. The Bravery and Muse are coming, and I want to see them. Oh, and The Cure and Mika are coming in September. YAY.

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I don't think anybody realizes how miserable I've been. And to tell you the truth, I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just not happy.

I'm glad Adri and I are talking again though. I love her.

Down 24.6 pounds.

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I'm a cunt. Ask my sister and Brian. They'll let you know. I don't know why I'm acting like one though. I should get that YAZ shit.

I lost 20.2 pounds so far with Weight Watchers. Annnnd, I'm a size down in my jeans. HOLLER.

I'm tired. K, kool.

Just wanted to update and say that I'm still doing the Weight Watchers-ness. Down 9 pounds.

I'm getting my wisdom teeth pulled on Monday. I'm SO scared! No work for 5 days!

Border Cafe' makes my life complete. So does Tiana. ♥

I'm negative. Why does this have to happen to me? Honestly, I kept track of everything, and one second I have $150, the next I have -$8. It worries me that someone is messing with my account. But, I'm sure they're not. I can't go all week with NO money. It won't work. Balls.

Working 3-10 tonight. I went home early yesterday for numerous reasons, Aunt Flow came for a visit, my back was killing me, my belly hurt and I felt like I was going to start bawling my eyes out at the cash wrap in front of all the customers. So, my baby B.P.M. came in an hour and a half early for me. What a nice boy. Went out with Randy and the Brians later, got a yummy White Chocolate Mocha at Starbucks. It makes me so happy. I want to go to Border Cafe' tomorrow. I hate money.

I miss Tiana. I want to go to Amherst again some time soon, even though their Spring Break is coming up, I'll probably just wait until after then.

I'm keeping up with the Weight Watchers, although I won't be able to go to the next meeting without any money. Can you tell I'm upset about this money issue? But, I'm counting my calories and what I'm eating. It's kinda fun to see how many calories are in a little bag of Reeses Pieces. It would be a meal. We'll see how things work.

I'm out. One.

I don't think in my entire life we've EVER had Charmin toilet paper. You know my mom has money when she buys good toilet paper.

I HATE how cold it is. Winter is one of my favorite seasons, I love the snow. But, this windy shit isn't working for me.

I went to Amherst on Saturday, just got back a little while ago. I had a really good time...and I didn't get drunk. Chilled with Daniela on Saturday, and went to dinner with Tiana. Sunday, me, Tiana and a bunch of other people went to dinner. We all chatted and had a swell time. Rylee is really kool, Kristine is awesome (YAY for her doing my hair next time I come up!) Todd is always a sweetie and he did my nails all hott, and Tiana is always a good time. I'll be coming again soon. Hopefully, it'll be a lot warmer.

Ugh, I work 1-10 tomorrow. Yeah great. And, we have a new General Manager, word on the street is that she's a fatty...she'll love me then!

One.

Why do I like people that always turn out to be complete assholes? Ugh. Fuck em'.

I'm high right now and just ate a lot of food. I have work in the morning too. I hate smoking, then having to wake up early the next day. Anywho, I talked to someone and found out how he really felt, it hurt a little...but I'll get over it.

Mani Pedi tomorrow! Finally, my toes are gonna look hawwwwwwwt.

I'd get hit with shit for you, remember that.

I need sleeeeeeeep.

Ugh, my throat hurts. K, kool.

Oh, and I've come to the conclusion that men suck. I knew that before too, but now I reeeeaaaalllly believe it. All they care about is getting their pee pees sucked. Ball bags. (Those too.)

My mom and I were supposed to go to the movies and see The Departed, but she came home not feeling well. Which is fine, because I want to sleep. Then there's that delicious Burro from Border Cafe'. Should I go? Perhaps. Sleeping is for losers anyway.

I'm excited about seeing VNV Nation with the Brians and probs Tiana. We watched a VNV Nation DVD with them on tour and they seem like really kool people. They get drunk and joke around a lot. It's pretty LOLZ. And their music is all hott and stuff.

New Years wasn't that great, only because I didn't get drunk. Brian N. was trashed by 10, Tiana passed out for an hour and Brian M. was "dizzy" not drunk, dizzy. But, it was a good night. "Rabbit, Rabbit" were my first words for the new year. We'll see how things go.

Ok, Border Cafeness!

If you cared about me at all you'd think I'd at least get a phone call. Ehh. There's not much else to say about that situation.

So, a couple nights ago I went over Chris' house with Ryana and drank some alchohol. I got a little trashed, called Brian squared and Matt 27 times and told Brian that I would suck Matt's pee pee while having cum all over my face. Umm, ewwwww! I would NEVER do that. But, they do say the truth comes out when you're drunk. It was a fabulous time either way. Gotta love my homos. DEFINITELY doing that again.

And, tomorrow I will be getting drunk again. YAY.

Brian and I talked about some things I don't like to tell people. I'm glad I told him about myself more than I've ever before.

No work til' Tuesday. :-)

I tried hard not to cry talking to Bri Bri. Talking about all that stuff hurts so much because you can't help who you love. I tried to tell myself that I don't like her anymore because she "fucked" with my head. But, UGH. I can't help the way I feel.

Tonight was fun though, Sags and I are buddies again. We made yummy ghetto cookies last night and played Scene It with her family and Ryana. It was a good time.

I need to sleep. Balls to work at 7 a.m.

I REALLY want to do something pretty with me hair. I think I'm going to go to a professional, get it bleached and dye it purple.

I had a dream that Green Day were in Medford at some restaurant and my dad knew they were there and didn't tell me. So, my brother and I were on a mission to find the place so I could meet them. By the time we got there, they were gone and I was so mad at my father. I think I just miss Green Day, and I was wearing their shirt yesterday.

My check is terrible. And, I still have to get gifts for 7 people. Ugh. At least I got the cards done. I bought pretty glittery cards for my close friends and foil cards for my co workers.

Things have been kinda weird lately. Yesterday especially. But, I've been talking to people and I think everything is going to be ok.

I need to go do something. Not having work is weird.

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